Thoughts in reality #3

Sometimes it takes decades to find the meaning of everything that you done in your never get a graduation if you don’t spend your time in highschools and universties , you never get a meaning of your love life if you stop loving and being there for each other forever,you never get a successful career if you don’t believe yourself when your boss treat you like a shit but still you work your ass off and you cannot achieve those decades and decades of time,efforts and energy of investment without rejection the alternatives.

We are define by what we choose to reject in particular phase,you can’t walk on a different path on a same time simultaneously ,you have to reject one even if it’s healthy decisions yet they require rejections in all the time,something in order to value something it’s often need both giving and don’t look for a meaning of life before you start it.

Seek what you really capable of and think what you really deserve for it ,believe me the process is everything ,the success is just makes you to move forward but the process behind it is what makes you the person to do in real,start living it.



rambling thoughts

These 20’s is already messing me up in every possible way, practicing and understanding what’s happening inside my mind. Getting more motivation and inspire from TED talks nowadays a lot, cause lack of self motivation at my work place.Most of the time in office, less time with family and friends,maintaining my cool as well maybe this is how it’s actually works usually or maybe i’m not aware of it anyway because i’m new to this cooperate transformation to the next phase of life ,i heard it somewhere which moment you longing for so badly you want it to happen in your life??…you would think that will change everything,the moment you waited for,the moment you dreamed of ??…and then when it’s happen in real time you don’t feel the same excitement and curiousness or anything,you’ll just watch it happen and pass off to other stuff ,maybe that’s a growth,the pain is the process of everything and that’s i’m facing it right now .
Even if i managed to stand up,all this fucking social media motivational memes,quotes and sayings is fucking me again whenever i scroll a feeds everyday….seriously?? Sometimes I thought I might be a biggest hypocrite as far i know myself,i’ll tell people don’t lose hope,giving up is not gonna solve anything,be strong,let it be blah blah blah kind of pampering words you know, to make them feel better,but here i’m,barely holding on.
Figuring out what’s pissing me off is even a big deal for me right now!!..thinking about every sort of crap too early.At least i’m tryna hard to don’t take anything into my mind for now,just enjoying the process .Seeing everything fall at it place and also watching everything falls down on a other side but i love the way i’m becoming to, i’m setting a values and metrics to myself,maybe that’s why i feel so hard to take it ,maybe this process will need some balance to set it free.Self-remembrance??why is it so difficult!!..Read it somewhere

“giving up a values you’ve depended on for years is going to feel
disorienting,as if you don’t really know right from wrong anymore.
This is hard,but it’s normal”

Changing values,changing priorities(anyway it’ll change,it’s natural). I started doing things rather than thinking of it, we don’t always control what happens to us,but we do control how we interpret what happen to us,as well as how we respond.I already mentioned in my another post,we can able to create, edit and interpret our stories where ever we want to,how you want people to hear it and understand because it’s your fucking can change all the negative into positive and the other way around.Growing up with a experiences,a usual, ordinary and routine stuff i rather like the way it is maintaining a healthy friendship,started meeting new people ,more talking and stalking,more laughing,reading good books,blog whenever i feel like,spending more time with myself rather than someone else,debating with hormones,discussing and trying to understand how my mind is working most of a time and filtering out what really matters.
this year will definitely going to be rocking one,RESOLUTION???…really??? i can’t even remember my last year resolution,you know a lot can happen within a year,fuck this “new year,new me” thing,of course i’m going to be different person next year,shit will happen,i’ll trust a process,cheers.
i’ll drop this note here though i’ll repost it next year.


Thoughts in reality #2


I used to think the whole meaning of life is having a perfect life, a perfect women, perfect student, perfect employee, perfect girlfriend .so i started searching for a top colleges to do my Under Graduation , a ideal job but everything which I thought will lead a perfect life isn’t the way in reality, I felt unhappy, depressed and anxious, I come to know what I searched in all this years is meaningless because i grown up with the culture were everybody listens to the story of successful person but nobody knows the story of failure. we believe the words of the successful people and follows their path ,every living in this world is a reflection of some one’s life ,but is this makes you a truly happy and satisfied person?? NO. there is always a emptiness in every person.

we’re always in a rush of settling in our life ,i used to dream more about my life how it would be ,how i’m going to work , future plans and all, to engage myself at everything.

I think, how well we create our surroundings is matters more ,because in our young days all of our thoughts is connected to the higher reality ,we think beyond our limits, we believe having a good job with a good pay will satisfy us .we thought happiness is buying something which makes us feel happy but it’s not,it feels less about what you want than what you give .

In our society , first of all to lead a happy life ,we just want to do what we’re interested ,but in our culture,if you score a good mark, you don’t get a course what you looking for, whether you gotta a course you have interested in, you’re not able to go for the job related to that ,everything is lack of time, lack of decision making ,we’re just going with the flow .

Our culture is obsessed with happiness , we give more time to find a path of our life than being happy. i believe finding meaning of the life makes your path fulfilled . happiness puts you in comfort zone and live in the moment. So we feel difficult to stepping out of our ease life. Most of us disrespect a lot of people who initiate to talk with us …..we reject them without realizing it by checking your phone when someone is talking to you ,and through facial expression ,we’ve lack of paying attention to the present.

I always laid back in any relationship . I’ll create a strong bond with each other, but after sometimes I stop talking with them but i still have the same love and bond just beacause I feel depressed & anxious of other stuffs in my life that distracted to affect my present .after then I came up to them but they’re become changed person, then it’s end up with guilt.

Life gives you a purpose , something makes you live for, someone to their family , someone to their children or to their own selves and for some WHY NOT that moves you forward . sometimes your own selves feels helpless. At one time I’m completely involved in the stuffs that I love to do (writing ,family, friends, my work)i get so in the zone without realizing the time and situation but the very next moment I feel like I’m done with all this.

I think the mixture of emotions in every phases and the experience you gain from all can change you. This will create a story of yourself to tell about yourself. To understand who you are, every events in your life made you a different person, you’ll find a new meaning of life after your graduation, after a love, after a break.

We’ll tell stories about what you lost and what you gained , it’s all about bad is redeemed by the good . I’m hopeless in my life before a years but my growth and purpose of living creates a hope in my life.we can edit, retell a story , some people get help from retelling their stories , we can interrupt our stories into different situations , we find a solution of unsolved puzzles by applying our experience into the new situations ,which we forget to solve in our past, but we refilled it by various situations, how your defining experience shaped you, living a meaningful life takes so much work , you can’t change a story in overnight. It takes time, years after all self – realization we constantly creating our story into the track, sometimes it get off track. The chasing of happiness can make people unhappy, everyone say that happiness is success but for me happiness is how I move on with all odds in my life, you can be anything in this world, YOU DECIDE.

With love,


Blogger award


I have been nominated for a blogger award,first of all thanks for nominating me vishnu ,this guy is second friend of mine in this community who i know personally from wordpress. he won’t say himself a writer but i’ll say he would become a best writer if he continues writing ,trust me he is can have a life changing moment if you give a read to his blog because all his posts are not a poetic ones or any other dramatic mess, he writes about everything which is surrounded by him ,literally every single thing that ever body forget to notice in their life but the way he portrait everything is just mesmerize me sometimes, he can mould a piece of rock into the sculpture.

So generally, i don’t post anything related to awards and nominations and all i’ve so many in my pending list ,literally i’m too lazy to follow the rules that they give for the nomination .only because i respect this guy so that’s why i wanted to post this.

Here is the blog definitely it’s gonna be a worth reading guys,he deserves more than a best:


So how I started this blog?

Lol…it’s not a big story actually,i have a habit of writting a diary since my schooling,so it tooks me to write a quotes ,i write so many quotes and kept with myself (because i don’t think it’s a quote)one day unfortunately i kept my diary on my desk and left home then my friend reads all my quotes without asking a permission(wait…they never ask a permission).so they suggest me to share it on internet but I don’t believe it’s good to share then I just give it a try after sometimes I get bored of writing a quote so I started thinking what is next, later I started a blog.

I never thought that I’ll get this much response for my blog, basically it’s all started because I’m so bored still I can’t say I’m a writer ,I just share my thoughts and experience through my blog.i have seen so many peoples who shares their story that’s so inspiring to lead my life and it’s totally a life changing moment for me while interacting with these people.

It’s great way for self improvement and statisfaction , I spend most of the time for improving my self as a better person still I’m learning.


What’s that makes me to continue writing ?

First thing is I just obsessed to writing

second thing is I just love to interact with different people,one day one guy texted me through instagram ,formally he said that my blog is very good to read and all, it’s started developing a conversation and he tells about his experience ,what he’s doing and all, I can see through his text that he’s so shy and reserved and hopeless in his life. He’s jobless for a year even though he’s very talented person but he didn’t get any opportunity. I can feel him he was so worried so I just share my opinions to motivate him but he doesn’t really open up himself to share anything, later he tells me that he has the fear of talking in crowd and he don’t know how to overcome the fear . so I just give him some piece of advice to bring up the confidence in him . after somedays left I didn’t receive text from him, one day I gotta message from him that he got selected in a company and also he mentioned to thank me for I was the one who break the fear in him that’s why he can able to interact with a group of people in discussion without any hesitation , I saw the different person in him when I text him after some long days and he’s happy now. It’s always good to know someone is happy in their life because of you . I know it’s not a big deal for everyone but for me it’s a big compliment.

So I like that feel very much, that’s makes me to write more. Still now I’m learning to write a better content through my thoughts without distracted to other topics


See bascially I’m a beginner, it was just 2 months since I started blogging so I wasn’t clear about giving tips and all


The way you write is going to describe your personality, just share what you want to tell to this world, it’s ok to be not noticeable from everyone. One day it’s all gonna payoff ,so stop looking for a comments and likes , start working for a better future.

P.S: I wasn’t following any rules here, I just randomly typing what I have to say, thanks for reading.