Someone at office said that “its a curse to be a sensitive women”…No its not ,mostly womens tends to be more honest about expressing what they’re feeling… Keeping it all inside will cause a mental illness that end up with depression…just bring it out you know it’s takes courage to show emotions outside its doesn’t mean you’re a weak person you’ll come to how to control it wisely…and you don’t have to show it to the world either all that matters at the end is your mental health so you don’t have to lose it for any cost,never feel sorry about being real.
It’s been a year since I haven’t active in WordPress. Just experimenting all these days by giving some space to people who can get into my life which I don’t prefer hereafter😂. I thought I’m not so grateful for the people in my life who can make efforts to made my days happy cause I’m the person who’s very bad in expressing what I feel but then what its causes now is I started depending on them.I accept the more you love the more you hurt it might be in any relationship, I have been too kind to people and ended with the situation I could’ve avoided it before.I agree being kind is really takes a lot and lot of patience still some people don’t deserve that you can be asshole to the assholes,keep them aside. The more you invite people into you life’s the more you become dependent on them I never complain about tat, you need it someday but its causes a mental illness if any single changes from them might create a very big Storm in your head because you accept them to know your depth.Even though you know it it’ll hurt you someday but you started fall into that situation again its human nature for sake that your heart always goes behind what its longing for.
I have been through this for 3months it’s really hard to come out from that phase,i felt like i lost me i started re reading my old diaries to get back to my old self ,i try to write but i am not able to , I’m totally lost i couldn’t make that happen every single day i felt void ,I’m in different level of depression where I’ll laugh my heart out and a very next second i feel low ,i felt so annoying,irritated.
Now I’m trying to accept the reality that what you’ve experienced has show the right path for you always, even if its a worst phase anyway you’ve survived and you decided to break that chain which is holding you. I realize never let toxic people to put down and still be with you.
Aren’t you the person who’s literally obsessed with yourself like you want something supremely comes after you to convince yourself to even look at other stuffs for create a interest or attraction with someone more than self?
Aren’t you that one old cultured dude with new trend in your circle repeating the same poses in all the selfiees ,not spending a lot of money on shopping and cancelling the plans to stay at home, still spoiling yourself by watching all unrealistic romantic dramas and believing it could happen and sometimes feels like you’re getting old enough to listen the same repeated bullshit emotional dramas and fakeness that you were been through in your whole life maybe that’s why you didn’t give a fuck about anything anymore???…
We all are looking for that one special person,who you can believe they will change everything then you started giving values to the person that you never met in real but still that’s all you created hypotheticaly in your mind and you are searching the qualities in every single person you met then you start doing the compatibility between the fictional personality to the real personality , if anything doesn’t fit into your expectations then you lost interest before you develop feelings.Now why you’re not showing interest for the people to hangout,to talk,to share stuffs is because you become the person already who you looking for with all the qualities that you were searching , so it’s takes time you to realize it you are that person.
I have no idea why i post this😐,maybe i’m this person.